Saturday, April 22, 2017
Pic via: the HEAT of the moment! ๐Ÿ˜‚ Would you look at that scene down there. Poop on the Solly Swaddle. Diapers. Tissues. Our best friend, Nose Frieda (my favorite contraption). Pajamas, the mat, wipes, and a tiny bit of Baby Emmy head. 
The shot hails from week 3-4 when Emmy had a cold (and 50% of what we did all day was suck out her nose, poor thing). The week was rough, as each one is up until weeks 6-8. As you can see, I plopped my scriptures right on top of everything going on, and as you can see, they're closed. I had them ready to open and read, but I ended up reading only on my phone that morning, as so many of these morning scripture studies have gone. I simply hope to share that I'm scrapping to keep my spirit fueled - my "studies" are SO far from perfect - but I'm scrapping and that's the point. Reading anything with the intent to connect with God and to show Him that I care about His presence in my life is one big way that I'm putting my most faithful foot forward these days. I wish I could say that everything has been blissful because I'm working to be faithful, but hello, you can see life is very much an incredible mess. 

Does that mean I should shake a few fists up to heaven then? I'm being "good," where's the reciprocity?! I'd be lying if I said I haven't done that in some of the more desperate moments of this stretching time, but I'd also be lying if I said that attitude was okay to keep around, because it's not. God does hear. He DOES answer. You do your part, and He does His, both at the impeccably perfect and the most reasonable times. This family/motherhood adjustment phase it's very much like a marathon to me: while I can grab a drink of water here and a gel packet there to keep me going, I can't (and shouldn't!) get everything I want right now. I'm in the middle of the run. I'm not yet at the finish.

But boy, am I getting there. And when we've arrived - when we've crossed the line of adjustment and age and adaptation to our new life around here - we'll look back and see how good it was for us to run really hard, for a really long time, without more help than we needed. We will have earned our strength. God cherishes those times when we, His children, can use our agentive grit to grow (IE, this and this). And you know what? After watching my big girls get scrappy and conquer something without much more involvement than my constant encouragement - I keep my hands off as little as possible for their optimum growth - so do I. Strength and struggle travel together. The pursuit of easy things makes men weak. ๐Ÿ’›

Didn't think I'd have so much to say tonight! I do have so much to say and share about what I'm learning right now on this precious-to-me blog, though...how I hope to be back again this week with more. 

And now, a short and sweet "Sweet Is the Word!"

Study (not entry, since I didn't get to write any of this down!) from Saturday, April 21
"Even so faith, if it hath not works, is dead, being alone." 

And the following below from this awesome message on what faith is:

"Faith is more than belief. It is complete trust in God accompanied by action.
"It is more than wishing.
"It is more than merely sitting back, nodding our heads, and saying we agree. When we say “the just shall live by faith,” we mean we are guided and directed by our faith. We act in a manner that is consistent with our faith—not out of a sense of thoughtless obedience but out of a confident and sincere love for our God and for the priceless wisdom He has revealed to His children.
"Faith must be accompanied by action; else it has no life (see James 2:17). It is not faith at all. It doesn’t have the power to change a single individual, let alone the world."
So what will I DO today to show that I have faith?
I'm going to smile. I hardly smiled yesterday. Today I will smile and laugh and let myself love this work. I know God has asked that we be cheerful, so today I'm going to 1) trust that God is noticing how hard I'm working and 2) my accompanying action will be my smile!


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