Monday, July 11, 2016
My journal entry from Thursday night, July 7, was one line long: "Living in 2016 America is scary." In retrospect, I should've written that the whole world in 2016 is scary, because while I'm truly so removed + ignorant toward the plight of millions out there, if I can grasp the immense pain recently felt here on my soil, I can attempt to imagine what people are going through elsewhere. And it is awful. 

I already wrote out some of my feelings on coping with the insane current events on Instagram; I posted Friday night after spending some time worshipping + serving in the San Diego temple. My post was straight from my heart and I stand by every word. But there's a bit more I need to say...

As a young mom raising tiny, little girls, I'm scared. Yes I'm thinking of Minnesota, Lousiana, and Dallas - all of that awful, unanticipated violence. I'm thinking of the increasing attempts to abduct children - children who are within their mothers' sight, if not literally holding their mothers' hands! I'm thinking of uncontrolled anger of strangers, creeping eyes from bystanders, and masked abusers in "safe" circles. 

What is going on?

What happened to humane boundaries? What happened to basic respect? What happened to safety and security? What happened to kindness? What happened to caring about having clean hands and pure hearts? Is goodness gone? 

No, it's not, I know that. If anyone works hard to wear a hopeful pair of optimistic shoes, it's me. But with the frequency of disgusting attacks from one person toward the next, I can't help but sit in my realistic shoes for a second and wonder: what do I do? How do I  keep my family safe? I'd be a fool to not say it: life today is scary. 

Maybe I'm a simpleton, but as I sifted through a lot of feelings this week, this surfaced as one of my answers for now: stay the course. Stay the course of faith in God, of living and breathing my religion, and of clinging to the protective power of Jesus Christ. 
Inside the temples of my faith, you get to learn more specifics about that protective power, belonging to both Christ and Heavenly Father. You get to see the powerful effect of Their existence on another being - Satan - whose influence is truly very real. You actually get to see, in an undeniable way, the clash between the source of all goodness and the root of all evil, and guess what? Satan doesn't win. He cannot win. He throws terrible, awful, painful punches, but in an awesome way, you get to see that God and Jesus Christ shut him down. Satan is nullified - wiped out - by the thought alone of our Savior, Jesus Christ and God, our Heavenly Father. 

It is worth it to stay the course. If we cling to Christ and His commandments, we will be okay! I wholeheartedly believe that. Sometimes I wish my eyes could truly see...

And when the servant of the man of God was risen early, and gone forth, behold, an host compassed the city both with horses and chariots. And his servant said unto him, Alas, my master! how shall we do?

And he answered, Fear not: for they that be with us are more than they that be with them. 

And Elisha prayed, and said, Lord, I pray thee, open his eyes, that he may see. And the Lord opened the eyes of the young man; and he saw; and, behold, the mountain was full of horses and chariots of fire about Elisha. 2 Kings 6:15-17

Oh the hope that account gives me. And you know what's beautiful about God's existence and His plan for every person in this world? Everyone can be included in that "us" mentioned above. Protection offered by God is not exclusive. On the contrary. Knowing how evil Satan is, God would like to have as many of His children as possible accept Him, to clean themselves up through His Son's strength, and to get inside the temple and be enshrouded by His safety, peace, and protection.
I don't know all those that read my blog here - I know a good chunk - but for any out there that do not yet know God, reach out to me and let me tell you more about Him. Let me tell you about the commandments you can keep so that God's legions of angels can swoop in an even broader way to guide your life and keep your family safe. Because God has said that there are specific actions to take to have full, divine coverage from the storms. Not because He is exclusive, but because His plan has always been so: to allow us our agency to follow Him with exactness, and receive the most that He has. God will not trample on your power to choose, but oh how He calls, "Come, follow me."

Believe it or not, there is safety for our souls today. It's a wicked world, but darkness dispels with even the smallest beam of light. So when I remember that Christ's light is huge, I cannot help but feel with my whole soul that the wrong shall fail, and the right will prevail! They that be with us are forever more than they that be with them. 



  1. Thank you Jeni, for this post. I too have been scared with all that is going on. Thank you for reminding me that we have hope as mothers raising our children in this world!

    1. You're so welcome, friend. I was grateful for the reminder, too. We're all in this together! XOXO

  2. I was literally crying in the car last week while talking to Nate about thinking about the unavoidable trials and pain my boys will be asked to go through in the future. It probably sounds silly - but it just sort of hit me. I love the knowledge we have of Christ and His Atonement. Life is so about being tried and tested - but Jesus comes to the rescue, every time! What comfort this sweet sentence gives... Love you Jeni! Don't you fret! Your girls are in good hands! :)

    1. Not silly at all - this last weekend was the same way for me. It all just hit and it was a hard hit. The comfort His reality gives is as sweet as it gets, isn't it? Love you, Joanna! Your sweet boys are luckier than every to have you.


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